♥♥dear frend , jindgi me kuch
pal aise hote hai jo fir kabhi
wapas nahi aate..kuch
lamhe aise hote hai jine ham
dil se nahi jite..or khuch
kahaniya aisei hoti hai..jo kabhi puri nahi hoti..ye
kahani hai ek aise ladke ki
jisne jina nahi har pal marna
sikha..pakar bhi khona
sikha..ye kahani hai meri..
mera naam raj hai. mai 24 sal ka hu. meri ek chhotisi
family
hai.mom,pappa..di..bhai..mai
apne life me khus hu.mai ek
writer hu..paper pe..book
me..drama. film script..or artical likhta hu. isi karn
hamesha se hi ladkiya mere
karib rahti thi.itni si umar me
muze itni ladkiyo ne propos
kiya ki jitne naam bhi maine
life me nahi sune..une mere romantic artical pasand the.
or mai ye baat ko janta
tha.mai ek emotionl hu..
muze o din aaj bhi yad
hai..subah 10 baje uthne ki
meri gandhi aadat hai.us din bhi mai soya tha.sandy
(mera dog) ghar me bhok
raha tha isiliye mom uske
piche bhag rahi thi. hall me
meri di(riya) gane dekh rahi
thi..kamwali bai mere room me aai..usne subah ka
papre mere bed par rakh
diya..thodi der bad meri
nind khuli.maine mom ko
aawaj diya..”mom..i need a
cooffie so give me plz..” mom ne kuch bhi jawab
nahi diya mai fir se chillane
laga..”mom..ye mommmi’”
hat me paper leke mai bed
se utha.kichan me gya or
cooffie banai fir se bad par aakar so gya. kuch der bad
meri nind khuli .abhi dopar
ke 2 baje the. maine paper
ko hat me liya..aaj bhi mera
romantic artical “ye jindgi
bin tere’ chhapkar aaya tha. maine mobail ki tarf
dekha .mobaile band tha
maine use on kiya.or
nahane bathroom chala
gya..thodi der me mobaile ki
ring sunayi di..us wakt mai bathroom me buri
candotion (aap samz sakte
ho) me tha.nahane ke bad
maine mobail hat me liya
dekhta hu to unknow
number se call aaya tha.mai samz gaya ki koi mera fan
hoga artical ke liye phone
kiya haoga.5 minit bad fir se
usi number se muze call
aaya. tabel par laptop koi
battan on karte huwe maine call recive kiya.. ” hello..kya
aap raj ji baat kar rahe ho..”
“ha ” maine sirf ha bola ..o
kuch der chup rahi fir se
boli.. “maine aaj paper me
artical padha ..or aapki diwani ho gai..kash koi
muze bhi is tarha pyar
karne wala mile..aap kya
karte ho..aapki umar kya
hai..aapke ghar me kon kon
rahte hai..aapki koi grilfernd hai kya..kya man hai
uska..mai aapse milna
chahti hu..aap muze pasand
to karoe na..mai tume bahot
chahti hu..” use bich me
rokhte huwe maine kaha . “madam staion aagya hai
abto ruk jao..aapke konse
sawal ka jawab pahle hu..”
o hasne lagi mai bhi hasne laga.us din se o muze roj sms karti thi ..uska nam pari
tha..par mai use pyar se
tuktuk kahta tha.o ek
doctor thi. o muzase 2 sal se
badi thi. ham us din se ek
dusare ke sath chating karne lage..aaisa nahi tha ki
o pahli ladki hai jo muze
sms karti thi..uski tarha kitni
sari ladkiya thi jo muze har
din sms,call karti rahti thi.
par un sab me mai tuktuk ko jyada pasand karta
tha.uski aawaj muze bahot
pasand thi.na jane kuv uska aawaj sunane ka dil
karta..har din o muze subah
7 baje uthaya karti
thi..subah jaldi uthnae ke
wajah se hamare bhich me
zadla hota tha. mai gussa karta o ro deti thi. ek baat
kahu, uska rona muze
achha lagta tha.ji karta tha o
uhi roti rahe or mai u hi use
dhekhta rahu..dhire dhire
mai uske karib jane laga ..or o bhi muze pahle se hi
pasand karti thi.mai janta
tha ki o muzse pyar karti
hai. par usme batane ki
himmat nahi thi. maine use
sabhi ladkiyo ke bare me bataya.pahle to use bahot
bura laga.fir usnne kaha ki ‘
tum o hi itne acche ki koi
bhi ladki tumse pyar kar
sakti hai..” muze sunkar
achha laga .mai kisi bhi ladki ke sath flart nahi kar
raha tha.nahi kisi ladki ko
maine love you kaha. magr
mai tuktuk ko chahne laga
tha..dhire dhire din bitate
gaye..ham 2 sal se sms or call nkarte the..magr ham
kabhi nahi mile the..nahi
maine use dekha tha. such
kahu dosto .kabhi milne ki
jarurat hi nahi lagi ..kabhi
kabhi lagta tha use milna chahiye magar fir sochta tha
ki milne ke bad usne ..ya
maine use pasand nahi kiya
to..or mai kisi bhi halt me
use khona nahi chahta tha..
ham pyar ki baate kam ..ladte jyada the..har
baat pe gussa karna..uska
rona ..fir mera use
manana..uska har roj subah
muze nind se
uthana..nahane keliye..bal ke liye..pen..bras ..se leke to
har chij ke liye bar bar muze
yaad dilana uska is kadr
apnapan muze uske tarf
khichta tha.uski bato me oi
kashis thi ki mai uska diwana hone laga tha.ham
dono jante the ki nahi
maine use kabhi dekha hai
or nahi usne muze kabhi
dekha hai.par ham ek dusre
ke bina nahi ji sakte the.ek bar film ke script ke liye
muze haydrabad jana pada
us wakt usne mere liye 4
din tak khana nahi khaya
tha..o chahti thi ki ham
mile..sadi kare..hamare do bache ho..ek beta or ek
beti..bete ki nak uski upar
jaye or oth mere jaisi
ho..bete ka nam aryan or
beti ka sain ho.. uski aisi
bato ka muze hamesha dar lagta ha .sach to ye bhi hai
ki mai use chahta tha bahot
chahta tha..or sadi bhi
karna chahta tha.kuch din
bad mai apne naye project
me lag gaya.us wajah se mai tuktuk ko kam time dene
laga.har rat mai der tak kam
karta or subah der tak sota
rahta..dhirew dhire mai
gussa karne laga..chhoti
chhoti bato par chidne laga..hamare bich zagle
hone lage..mai depretion
me jane laga..mai har wakt
sirf kam ke bare me sochta
tha. o muze samzne lagi
thi.par o kuch nahi kar sakti thi.or mai pura dhyan
project par tha.tin 7 mahino
tak ye sab chalta rha..ye din
usne muze phone kiya or
kaha..” raj mai tumse milna
chahti hu..ghar me sadi ko lekar baat chal rahi hai..mai
kisi or se sadi nahi karna
chahti. i love you mad..”
maine use samzaya ki ye
project khatm hote hi ham
milenge.. ye kitna ajib lagta hai na..ki kisi ladki ko
dekhe bina..use mile bina
koi itna pyar kaise kar sakta
hai..magr mere sath aisa hu
tha.ha i can love.har kisi ke
love story me ek raja hota hai ek raja hota hai..ek
rani ..magr mere love story
me to kuch bhi nahi ha..mai
ek aisi ladki se pyar karta
tha jiska maine sirf aawaj
suna hai..man hi man me use emagintion kiya hai..us
din bad tuktuk ne muze call
nahi kiya..2 mahino bad
muze uska phone aaya
usne kaha.. ” raj jindgi me
pyar hi sab kuch nahi hota..meri kuch jimmedariya
thi iske karn mai aaj tumse
dur ja rahi hu..meri sadi ho
gayi hai..ye sab batane ki
himmat muzme nahi
thi.isiliye aaj tak maine tume phone nahi kiya.mai tume
rote huwe nahi dekh
sakti..ha ye bhi sach hai ki
mai hamesha tumehi chati
rahungi..hamesha plz apna
khaya rakhna..kam se kam mere liye ..’ us din se aaj tak
mai uske call ka wait kar
raha hu..aaj har subah mai
mobaile ki tarf dekhta
hu..kahi uska sms ya phone
to nahi aaya honga..aaj mai o har pal andar hi andar
marta hu jo maine uske
sathe bitaye..o har pal rota
hu..kash o fir se yek bar aa
jaye..kash.. ishi gazal ji do
pantiya yad aa jayi ” kisi nazar to tera intjar aaj bhi
hai.. kaha ho tum ki ye dil
bekarar aaj bhi hai..”♥♥
